Synthetic Living

"I took a deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart. I am. I am. I am." - Sylvia Plath


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Good Friends, Bad Coffee

One of our good friends came in town for a visit this weekend.  I made bad coffee.  He is somewhat of an oddball in that he doesn’t follow conventional ways.  He is brilliant, often misunderstood.  I wish I could learn how to make a good pot of coffee.  I like to serve it to all of my friends, and even though I purchase the expensive brands, it always turns out too weak or too strong.  Everyone is always gracious and says it’s just fine, but it isn’t!  I can’t muster up the courage to drink it sans loads of sugar and cream.  Not just my coffee, but any coffee really.  So here is to raising your cup of coffee, whether good or bad, to good friends…

All The Live-Long Day…

Work this week kept throwing curve balls at me.  So much so, that I will have to go in to the office tomorrow to try and catch my breath.  But until then, I am enjoying a wonderful dinner from Robinson’s BBQ with my family and my favorite Frazzleberry dessert complete with more episodes of Mad Men.  It is always nice every year to have the two weeks off over the holiday when we close for business, but then I sure pay for it later by having to play catch up.  The work is always there, but I only have two weeks to accomplish it all rather than four.  This year it also seems as though there has been a catastrophe of some sort around every corner that I turn.  Hopefully in the next few weeks, things will settle down again and I can get back to things being normal at the office.  Whatever normal is, right?

Mad Men

Have you seen this show?  Pretty good rendition of the 1960’s office crowd, I believe.  When I watch this show, it reminds me of my dad, even though he would have never had the hottie secretary, or taken part in the infamous infidelity that runs rampant on the series.  My dad has integrity.  But I do remember my dad telling me situations with secretaries just like they are portrayed in Mad Men.  Also, the executives seem much like the stories that my dad shared with me when I was a kid.  I also remember visiting his office when it was a smoking and drinking environment like that on the show.  You know, the old Santa Fe building still stands tall, and renovated, here in downtown Amarillo, even though the building is no longer owned by Santa Fe, nor occupied by them.  My dad would tease with me that they were going to take down the big letters that spelled “Santa Fe” and put up the name “Wilk” on top of the building…  Sometimes I think I started to believe him!  I am very proud of my dad.  I saw him work hard all of his life and am happy that he feels that his life has been fulfilling and good.  He means the world to me and I can’t imagine this world without him.  Since he is suffering from an inoperable cancerous lung tumor, I am afraid that I will eventually have to learn what it will be like sans dad.  Even then, I will always be his “tootsie”!

Twenty Degrees Fahrenheit…

Yes, that was how warm it turned out to be today in Amarillo, Texas.  Even the snow flurries flirted with us just a tad, but would never materialize completely.  I thought about donning my bathing suit, but decided against it as it isn’t quite appropriate for the office.  Had a nice dinner out with my husband, and then got the grocery shopping tackled for the week.  All-in-all, a pretty productive day!  Spent some time with all three of the kids and puppies and kittens, too!  I even fit in a scrumptious cup of hot chocolate from Starbucks during the middle of my day.  I would have opted for the blueberry, self-serve, soft-serve, fat-free, frozen yogurt from Frazzleberry, (try saying that three times fast, and top it with blueberries), but the weather wasn’t fitting.  Hopefully tomorrow I can warm up and light a fire underneath my rear end to get what I need accomplished at work.  Maybe a good night’s sleep in my comfy new goose down bed will help!  Is it bedtime yet???

Mexican Food & Sport Bikes…

I’m not talking Tex-Mex, I’m talking REAL Mexican food here.  I think yesterday was the first time I have ever tried it.  We went to a local restaurant that many people kept telling us we needed to try.  Not a big fan of the real stuff, I guess, or I have become so accustomed to the fake stuff, that I prefer it!  The food was alright although the service was terrible.  The flan was nothing to write home about.  I had cheese enchiladas and my husband had the bistec ranchero.  His choice was better than mine.  After eating we went looking at sport bikes.  Not a big fan of the sport bike either.  They look and sound too dangerous.  I got to see the one that goes 200 mph-who needs that???  Some of the bikes looked pretty ominous and really cool, but as for me, I think I will stick with my Rav 4 or Mustang Cobra as my mode of transportation!

Socks!

I got new socks today!  I think socks rock!  On a side note, my husband took me to Frazzleberry, which was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!  Self-serve, soft-serve, fat-free frozen yogurt!  My husband rocks my socks off!  Happy weekend everyone!

Death and Dying

Three days ago my ex-father-in-law was sent to hospice due to multiple blood clots in his abdomen and legs.  My youngest son and I went to spend a few hours with him that day and he was unresponsive and incoherent.  They expected he would not last the day.  To everyone’s surprise, he did, so we went the next day to visit again.  This time, he was awake and asked my son for some ice cream.  We fed him the ice cream and had pleasant conversation with him for an hour or so and then he drifted back off to his chemical-induced sleep.  They kept him heavily sedated to take away his pain.  My son was so glad to see him in a much better state than the previous day.  We made plans to return again today, but right before we were going to leave, he passed away.  I have seen this happen so many times before.  A person recovers to a point where they are able to make peace with others and say their goodbyes and then they quietly slip away.  It is almost as if they are trying to make sure that everyone left behind is going to be all right.  The most unexpected part of our experience happened when hospice personnel recommended that we bring the family dog in to spend some time with him.  When the dog arrived, it was apparent that they were both happy to see one another.  I guess being surrounded by your family, friends, and pets would be the best way to go after all…

Unconditional Love…

Every time I walk through the door of my home, I am greeted by my two, very cute, and very loving mini dachshunds, Friedrich and Eva.  Never before have I experienced the kind of love and acceptance that they shower me with at each turn.  It doesn’t matter what time of day or night, whether I stink or have just showered, whether I am crabby or on cloud nine-they love and accept me no matter what!  They want to be around me even when I don’t want to be around myself…  These little creatures are the most loyal companions.  They are typically intelligent and highly protective of their person (me).  They can hold grudges when feeling anger or betrayal, but they always make amends for their wrong doings and look so darn cute as they go about it!  I wouldn’t trade my puppies even for a lifetime supply of The Water Still’s Sweet Blueberry Green Tea!  PS-You can find a dachshund just about anywhere, but you will have to come to Amarillo, Texas for the tea!

Give Me The Gas!

My day took the unfortunate turn of having to see the dentist for a cleaning and two cavities (not that I eat sweets or anything).  Of course, when they asked me if I wanted the nitrous oxide, I quickly replied, “Yes, oh, yes!”  (I typically opt for the ‘lessen-the-pain’ scenario in any case…)  Most of the time, the gas still does not cloud my brain so greatly as to mask the stick of the needle or the sound of the drilling, but today, ah today, was different indeed!  For some strange reason, I remember getting into the chair and getting out of the chair, and that was about it.  I left shortly after I arrived only with polished teeth and cavity-free!  I wish every unpleasant experience could yield similar results.  If I could have just figured out a way to sneak that tank of gas out the door, I might just be able to muddle through the rest of the muck that promises to come my way eventually.  I have conquered the dentist, now on to the world!  Psst-can anyone help me find some of that miracle cure for a rainy day?

That Four Letter Word

W O R K - Does anyone out there like this?  I hit the ground running today and didn’t stop until after quitting time.  I felt like I made absolutely no progress.  Trust me, there is more waiting for me again first thing in the morning.  I have to ask myself the question: “What if this is as good as it gets?”  I LOVE that movie-As Good As It Gets!  Melvin Udall is the perfect misanthrope.  Sometimes I find myself feeling like his kindred spirit.  Speaking of movie quotes, I remember when I first became interested in my husband, only he never asked me out on a date.  Finally I got up the nerve to say “Would you like to have dinner some night?” and he replied, “I like to have dinner every night.”  At the time I just thought he was being a smart ass, but later realized it was a quote from Wayne’s World!  G A S P!  He is still just as funny today as he was back then, and I love every minute of it!  Sorry about this rambling randomness, but this blog is about the things I think about from day to day, so thanks for reading and stay tuned for another exciting episode of Synthetic Living after this word from our sponsors…